I was supposed to be at the office the whole day last Saturday to have an overtime... but an unexpected issue got in between me and my office mate, who happened to be my classmate in college. We had a fight, the worst fight we had after 5 years of being together. After the fight, I decided to go home and to not go back to the office whether my project officer gets mad at me or whatever. I had the whole afternoon to have some rest. I slept for like 2 or 3 hours. When I woke up, I turned on the TV and as I was browsing or should I say looking for a channel that airs a good show, CS9 caught my attention. It was airing the Clear Men Future League. I tuned in when I heard that it was the Day 1 for Cebu Leg Tryout. I have a long attention span when the topic is about Cebu specifically Cebu Basketball. You may be wondering why. Well, it's because my ultimate crush is a varsity player in Cebu.
This guy had been my crush for 3 years now. Several friends have told me to stop my 'kahibangan' with him. I thought to myself that maybe they're right. Why do I keep on liking that man when I knew very well that he doesn't like me? Of course, he doesn't know me... hahahaha! I busied myself with my office works that I had forgotten about him, things changed a lot. I used to think about him every day and night but not anymore though sometimes I remember him when I am alone or I watch basketball or I pass by DPWH (he used to be a player for the DPWH Provincial Office Basketball Team). I tried to convince myself and everyone that I don't like him anymore. Was I successful? I don't know.
Now back to what I was watching... I was hoping that I would see him on TV. Each team were interviewed. I was concentrating when suddenly, I shouted, no, I squeaked because he was there! He still look. He was smiling while his teammates where commenting about their opponents. And that smile never fail to melt my heart. <3>
I texted my closest friends about what I saw on TV. One friend commented, 'You're inlove again'... I was suprised with her reply. Why on earth did she say that?! Did I really fell out of love with HIM? or the person I was when I was head-over-heels with HIM had just returned? I'm confused. Then I realized that it is easy to convince yourself that you're not inlove with that person, until you see that person one day, then your damn heart and mind whispers... 'Here we go again'.
Labels: crush, love
